Adventures in Unemployment

Soundtrack: The Temper Trap - Conditions I haven't written a post in a few months, mostly because I forgot I created this thing. However due to recent events, I feel like writing again because I think what I'm going through is something a lot of recent grads go through. Essentially the whole "discovering yourself and your calling" thing.

To sum up what's going on with me:

  • recent college graduate, currently unemployed
  • lease ending in two weeks, about to be homeless
  • finished up my job of a year and a half, about to go from a community of friends I see on nearly a daily basis to only a weekly basis (gasp!)

Needless to say, I'm a little emotional/crazy/bipolar these days. I dislike people, I don't want to find a job, I want to sleep all day, and I really want to run away to Seattle and spend all my money Black Eyed Peas style. But here's the cool thing: God is good and he's working everything for my good, even when I'm going crazy.

 

I'm so small.

Sunday's sermon at the Stone hit me hard. I produced the 5 o'clock service in a complete funk. I didn't want to worship, I couldn't pay attention to the sermon, and all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and go to sleep (if you haven't figured it out by now, I love sleep. Like, a lot). Fortunately God gave me enough energy to stay awake for the 7 o'clock where everything - every song, lyric and scripture - felt like God was speaking directly to me. It was a big awesome slap in the face of "Hey, quit focusing on yourself. You're WASTING your suffering. Trust me and learn to suffer well. Don't waste this time, use it to point people to the hope you have in the cross".

No joke, my depression was instantly lifted after that service. I was filled with so much hope and excitement for this season of unemployment, job hunting and general "finding yourself"-ness. Blogging is just an outlet for me to organize my thoughts and emotions during this period, and also be held accountable (since I'm only putting this out for the whole internet world to see). ;)

Love and peace,

Em

On an unrelated note, I'm people watching in Dominican Joe observing the following:

  • Guy next to me with beautiful Wolverine-esque chops.
  • Overhearing a conversation involving Indian accents. It's pretty sounding.
  • Suspenders are extremely attractive. (think 1920s style, not Urkel style)